( This ... feels bad. It feels bad because it's forcing Nico to acknowledge what the real problem is here: back home she brushed off meaningless hookup after meaningless hookup because she's actually pretty terrified of being the one who's discarded. Nico owns who she is but she's acutely aware of what she isn't: she isn't soft and sweet like Kyrie, she has a ridiculous job, she lives most of her life in a van full of demon-parts, and she's long since come to terms with the fact that she isn't exactly anyone sane's idea of a long-term investment.
Or so she thinks. Either way, it's for precisely this reason that she's always tried to avoid sleeping with people who matter, because the idea of being rejected by a stranger hurts far less than being rejected by a loved on.
Ugh. Daddy issues and a dead family can really do a number on a person, huh. )
But for the record, I didn't feel bad about what happened I still don't, it was good and I liked it I felt bad about maybe having freaked you out and made you not want to hang out with me any more
And then again for making some assumptions that were pretty insensitive
So
If you had different expectations, then I wanna hear them too
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( This ... feels bad. It feels bad because it's forcing Nico to acknowledge what the real problem is here: back home she brushed off meaningless hookup after meaningless hookup because she's actually pretty terrified of being the one who's discarded. Nico owns who she is but she's acutely aware of what she isn't: she isn't soft and sweet like Kyrie, she has a ridiculous job, she lives most of her life in a van full of demon-parts, and she's long since come to terms with the fact that she isn't exactly anyone sane's idea of a long-term investment.
Or so she thinks. Either way, it's for precisely this reason that she's always tried to avoid sleeping with people who matter, because the idea of being rejected by a stranger hurts far less than being rejected by a loved on.
Ugh. Daddy issues and a dead family can really do a number on a person, huh. )
But for the record, I didn't feel bad about what happened
I still don't, it was good and I liked it
I felt bad about maybe having freaked you out and made you not want to hang out with me any more
And then again for making some assumptions that were pretty insensitive
So
If you had different expectations, then I wanna hear them too